I'm one not half of two

2010-08-01T08:13:00.000-07:00

Wow everything is not the same now. Today I feel like blogging because it's August. No big deal I know. I feel fucking fucked up now. I don't know what is missing... Probably YOU? It should be. I miss you. I told my parents about you. I don't know why. But somehow to me all A M really do look like you. Maybe I'm just missing you badly. I watched MONGA today and yesterday because I couldn't finish watching one day. OMG I swear he really look like you! Grr. Can I rewind time? What a silly question. I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU. Nights blogger:)
[Can I walk past you again?

2010-07-09T09:53:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling very sleepy now. But it's Friday, I don't wanna sleep early. And I've spend the whole afternoon sleeping today. Life suck. I don't know what to do now! Can someone entertain me please??? I hope it won't be a bad Saturday tomorrow. Grr. By the way please follow my twitter! Hehe I know I'm like fucking slow. People started twitter long ago and I just start TODAY. So do follow ok, name: urawesomeashley . Alright, nightsy:)
[Come closer, baby.]

2010-07-04T09:23:00.000-07:00

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OMG I JUST READ XX'S BLOG. Because I was told by Celestine that she blogs about her eye surgery yesterday. To be frank, I always wanted an eye surgery when I'm older. I hate my eyes. The worst thing is, my friends around me mostly have big eyes/double eye lid. Including my own bf. Life suck. But after reading her blog, I ALMOST PUKE. I can't believe that it would be so disgusting. I thought you know once you get your surgery done immediately you will look good. I have never thought of the recovery... how badly it swells... I keep eee. I even shout for my daddy. I said I'm very scared, I really want an eye surgery to achieve wawa eyes!!!!!!!!!!! But daddy you take a look at all this pics... He replied NO, don't do la. You see wa lao so ugly. Don't do la, listen to daddy. Then I show him how it look like after the recovery... He got speechless. After the recovery, the eyes look damn pretty. So do you think it's worth it??? Should I get it when I'm older?????? Forget it, blog about something else. Today very suay again. I accidentally tear my art piece. OMG must re draw again! Cb fuck my life. Buh bye, tomorrow celebrating love(Felicia Lee)'s b'day! Readers if you don't know her, do add her up in FB to wish her happy b'day on 6th July. If you know her, no excuse not to wish her! I bet with her that more than 100 people will wish her:) Be one of the 100:):):)
[Words can't bring me down]

2010-07-02T08:23:00.000-07:00

I thought today I am able to upload some picts. But don't know why blogger is being such a bitch. I'm using an old model phone now. I just send baby crystal for repair about 2 days ago??? So sad... I think I'm fucking suay this week! Thursday I did something really stupid. I've repeat this story to 2 of my friends. On Thursday, my classmate ask me to accompany her to the toilet. At first I say don't want la... Then I pause and think... Aiya always I want go toilet she will also accompany me. So I agree. So when she was in one of the cubical, I was waiting outside. She went in for like 3-4 mins? While waiting I thought of locking one of the cubical with a coin. Too bad my pocket is empty. Ok not empty, baby crystal's memory card was inside. I left it in my pocket the day before. Being fucking stupid... I used the small little memory card to try to lock the door. AND IT BROKE. I was like WHAT THE FUCK... OMG... Never mind that is one matter. Then today I do something stupid again... I saw a cat under my dad's car. I MEOW very loudly and stomp my foot hardly on the ground and chase the cat. AND I ALMOST FALL. Even my dad thinks I'm really stupid... He asked why am I scaring the cat? I replied I don't know FOR FUN LO haha. Seriously what am I thinking????????????????? I'M THE STUPIDEST OF ALL. Grr. And today I was late for school! Of all the days in the week, WHY FRIDAY?? I skip breakfast. I skip having fun in class. I skip what teacher is teaching in class. I wrote 1000 words essay. SUAY HOR?! But but but... I'm happy that I just won 25$. Suppose to be 50$ but split with daddy:):):) Yay!!!!!!! Lucky didn't bet on brazil!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE MY DADDY!!!!!!!!! Good night:) I'm waking up early tomorrow.
[I've given you too much, I'm taking back my love.]

2010-06-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling sleepy now. I bet when I lie on my bed, I just can't fall asleep. Yesterday was like the "first day of school". Some of my subject's teacher change:( How sad. I prefer the old ones. I get to see my love(Felicia). We talked a lot. Beginning of the first period, 2 idiots hit me with newspaper by purpose! DM walk into my class suddenly. He didn't yelled at me for bringing sweet drinks to class:) Then check love's bag, found nothing. Love said he's against her. I think so too. After school, LONG JOHN for lunch! And lastly homey. As for today, love did not attend school because she was drenched. Poor me:( But it's ok it's ok at least I got someone to talk cock with:) Have to do self intro for GEOG. I so shy lo. When it's my turn I keep ask my friend go first. But I still go first. When I said my name is Ashley. My classmates shout :"SEAH" And everyone LOL. When my teacher asked what I did for June holiday... One of my classmate answered for me. She go jurong lo, find her boyfriend everyday lo. Then I LOL. Such a lovely class! That's all for today:) By the way, I downgrade my phone FOR A SHORT WHILE.
(I'm sick of waiting for your replies/messages... Can we message more???

2010-06-25T11:52:00.000-07:00

It's 4am now. I am not even close to sleepy. A lot of things is running through my mind. I get moody very easily now. Hope you understand me. I admit I'm causing the arguement between us. I just want to protect myself. I don't want you to step over me. I respect you, so what about you? Muacks dear:-*

Lots of love,
ASHLEY
[Just gonna stand there and watch me burn. But that's alright because I like the way it hurts.]

2010-06-24T10:48:00.000-07:00

So now you don't trust a word I said. I said I don't meant that way. You make it sound like as if I am lying. Why would I wanna lie? Seriously I don't even know why am I feeling so fucked up now. I really cannot explain how I feel. I don't want to type too much here. I don't want you to misunderstood again. I hate arguing with you. I feel like dying. It's been a bad day today. Pls forgive me and let me have a good sleep. OMG..............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................WHAT IS WRONG????????????????????????? Good night. I love you.
[Don't push too far.]

2010-06-23T10:06:00.000-07:00

I'm back from Taiwan just yesterday:) Kinda don't feel like coming back... I don't like it there but at least when I'm there, there's nothing for me to worry about. School open next week! I miss school. I am so bored now. I am not in the mood to blog about "trip to Taiwan". My bf and I don't talk much. No love messages. No feelings at all. I really wish I don't have to be back here. I miss being in different hotel for 8 days. I think I should just play some games and search for movie(s) to watch later. HAO MEN AH!(so bored ah)

My life will suck without you

2010-06-14T12:30:00.000-07:00

I won't be updating this space for a week. So to the ones reading this, do miss me:) I hope any girl out there don't mess with my bf. And I hope my bf won't mess with any bitches. This post will be wordy. I love typing. But I know readers hate reading wordy posts. I don't expect anyone to read this... EXCEPT: Algin Ng. Celestine Heng. Felicia Lee. Start from Felicia Lee, this school holiday is pulling us apart. Now we don't talk as much as we does. I miss you very much. You might be thinking "Aiya now got Algin and Celest, still need/miss me meh?" Yes I will always need/miss you. I know you the longest among 3. You know me better than them. 2 days ago was our 2 years 6 months. I thought we're meet up for neoprint. Guess I don't have the time, neither do you. I am glad that you said you will miss me when I change my pm. Really didn't expect that:) Can't wait to school reopen:) So can spend more time with you, draw and gossip/spot girl's panties/shorts together during art, giggle when HY talk cock and lastly had lunch after school:) I FEEL LIKE EATING FROLICK NOW! OREA TOPPING! Hehe:) Must eat with me again ok:)? Now Celestine Heng, pls help me look out see if he flirt! Also remind my silly to read the letters day by day not all at one shot... cannot finish up FA cookies(remind him to also drink plenty of water)... eat the lollipops I gave one per day! PLS HELP ME REMIND HIM, THANKS:) Don't over work k you. Though I know you love working. Spend some time thinking of me:) Preferred before you sleep:) So that I'll be the last person you thought of:) Hehe:) Usually when you quarrel with Kerry I'll console you now I'm not there for you I am sorry I can't do the consoling. Avoid all the silly arguements ok:) I don't want you to shed a single tear when I'm not around. Unless it's tears of joy:P Love you as much and and I won't forget to get you the nicest bag I spot k! Take good care of youself:)

Algin Ng Rui Xiang:
I've said this for a few times but I'm still saying this because I want this to get into your brain! Remember to read the letters day by day not all at one shot!!!! Cannot finish up FA cookies! Don't try to cheat me ok:( And everyday must eat one lollipop! Like that you won't forget me:) I really don't want you to forget me or don't miss me. Don't miss me=forget me. So pls ok MUST MISS ME ALL THE TIME. No matter how much fun I am having over there, you won't had the chance to escape from my heart/mind. You meant so dear to me... No I cannot lose you. Though sometimes I really wish I can dump you but at the end of the day I always realise I need you badly. It's not that I can't without you, or else I'll be dead by now. Is just that I don't want to live without you. No words can explain how I felt about you. You know I never like you to compare me with any of your ex. I love you not more than your mom but at least more than any of your ex. But since you said it's the fact that I'm just like them. Then maybe I think I have not done my job well. I've tried all ways to be your favourite girl... I'm actually that kind that hate spending money on bf. You're different. I find that there is a need to pamper you. I treat you like how you treat Nugget. You give him sweets, I give you sweets. He grr, you grr. Just like him hor??? Haha! I surely miss you and Nugget a lot. You both are the cutest pet I ever had. LOL. I would have type more if I had the time... But how much I type has the same meaning. Just wanna prove how much I love/miss you when I'm over there. I hope you appreciate all I have done for you. Take xtra care! Don't do things that disappoint me k. Love you most <3

2010-06-13T08:44:00.000-07:00

^Favourite^
OMG I'm leaving SG on Tuesday to Taiwan for a week! I hate being apart with my silly:( I hope we won't drift:) I trust silly won't cheat on me:):):) Hehe shall delicate a post to my dearest silly tomorrow night??? Now shall blog about Saturday:) Bugis to shop for Celestine's high waist short. None suit her. So unfair:( Heng heng never thank me and Algin accompany her to shop! Only thank Kerry:(:(:( Heng heng should be sleeping now. I miss her much... Yay tomorrow meeting her for my "last" time before my Taiwan trip:'( One week without me to travel back with you... Don't stay over at Kerry's place too late k. Cab must careful, mrt must be extra careful. You had seen the amount of bangala watching WC at JP entrance!!! Haha! I keep imagine them chasing me! I surely run full speed! Hehe:) Back to the bugis part... We also went iluma for air-con. I swear it's fucking hot that day. Actually almost every day. And ate ice cream there. Cost 7$+. Pls the ice cream so so only lo! Don't know why so expensive! No maybe my mood wasn't that great at that moment??? Algin Ng didn't even take a bite............. (pissed with him) After eating ice cream-GP-Silly's house-Homey:) Ok that's my Saturday. Today, I receive a text from an unknown. I decided to share this here because I think it's too good:)// DID YOU KNOW: -Kissing is healthy. -Bananas are good for cramps. -Chicken soup actually makes you feel better. -It's true. Guys DO insult you if they like you. -Having someone rub your tummy when it hurts actually helps it. -89% of guys would love it want girls to make the first move. -Girls love it when when Guys hug them from behind the waist. -Chocolate makes you feel better. -Girls love it when guys let them wear their hoodie ir jacket. -Guys think its cute when you mess up. -A true friend never judge you. -There is only one guy who is worth your tears. -If you have a dream about someone, then that person went to sleep thinking about you. -More guys.... than girls will read this. Everyone likes surprises. // I copy word for word and cut the ending because some stupid chain message. I hate chain messages. It's stupid. It's wasting my time reading it. But this was a awesome one. I love this part so much!!!-Girls love it when when Guys hug them from behind the waist. I slap my thigh a few times and said out loud "this is SO true" while reading it. I love back hug!!!!! OMG I am hoping now silly would see this and probably do it to me tomorrow???????????? Hehe! Loads of pics. Nightsy x3 It's 4am now.

1st day of work for heng heng! 1st time being so sweet to her:)

So kiute wor:):):)

Celestine and I x3

Me myself and I.

Silly and I <3

2010-06-11T07:12:00.000-07:00

Hi blogger. Class chalet was not bad:) Though there are lesser people attend. Not as wild as last year. But still it's ok la. Reached there at 7+. Did nothing much... Just walking in and out of the chalet. Eat... Snap pic... Movie at mid night! Watched karate kid! If you like IP MAN 2 you might also like karate kid:):):) I love both. I got to watch for free:) But have to pay for the pop corn and drinks:) After movie actually intended to head to some scary place for a walk but I didn't because my parents came to pick me up(fucking upset). Walk back to the chalet with one of my ex-classmate. Saw Felicia there:):):) SO FUCKING LONG DIDN'T SEE HER. We didn't even start a topic to talk, I got to go... I cried so badly. Slept at 6. Today my eyes look so puffy. Tonight must do something to it!!! Argue with my dad yesterday in the afternoon once, mommy keep covering my mouth. At night AGAIN. I have not even greet him today... Today afternoon argue with silly. WHAT THE FUCK. Tomorrow who wanna find fault with me??? Hope tomorrow can go out! Grr. Bye:)
[I tried so hard to keep this love alive...]

^He paid for my movie ticket!^

^3N2 girls:) They mistaken yesterday as national day! What a joke.^

^My "son" hide my phone in his pocket^

^We both look fat and short here. Yes we are. But she's taller.^

On progress of making "I LOVE LI MIN"
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Pictures with poor quality!

2010-06-09T08:59:00.001-07:00

Omg. My classmates called me just now. I heard the back ground. It sound like they are having fun:( Omg I can't wait for tomorrow. Saded still got tuition. Mommy and daddy ask why does my tutor keeps on coming??? I said I got no idea. This week and last week, 2 times per week. Usually it's only once a week! What the fuck. Stab me now. Grr. Stupid mossy, stop biting me. I know I got sweet blood. Like duhhhhh~ if not why am I so sweet?????? Haha good night whoever reading this:) I hope my classmates miss me:):):) Because I miss every single one of them.
[I need your love. Now I'm on my knees. So baby pls, pls pls don't goooooo~]
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I change my mind. I don't need your love. I won't go on my knees. Oh baby pls, pls pls gooooo~ Fucking upset now. Don't believe in what I said. I am just upset. My bf is still sleeping now. Really. Stab me now. Really. It's 1 am. He told me he slept at 12pm in the afternoon. Am I having an owl as my bf??? Sometimes you should try taking over my position. I wanna play the boy's role. I'm sick of playing nice. You don't deserve it. Everything suck. Fuck My Life.
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Today is just not my day. So is yesterday. So will tomorrow. I hate my life now. Can any kind souls be my listener??? I just lost my "best" listener. I need replacement for everything. Including myself. I want to say this so badly... I think I am starting to blank you... Again I don't mean a word here. I just wanna type out my feelings. Nothing here links to anything. I am talking no sense here. Can someone pray for me???? I don't believe in god. No hard feelings. But I guess now I think what I can do to cool myself down is to pray. Words can't explain how I feel. I've just wasted my time on this. At least I feel better. Better by a tiny bit... Tomorrow is gonna be a long bad day. I need my rest now.

2010-06-05T23:41:00.000-07:00

Afternoon blogger:) Got so much pics to upoload today! Actually every Saturday also like that:) And celestine want the pics quick. I hope my cam don't run out of batt. //Firstly I wanna apologise to CELESTINE HENG for making you wait. I know how it feels like waiting. And I did not off my phone is just that my phone suck. Always no reception... I slept at 4 everyday. Woke up at around 12+. It's a habit already. And I don't like to be out so early because I'm a very lazy and slow person. I can spend my whole day lying down doing nothing. So this is the difference between me and Celestine. She like heading out early. She do things fast. And I'm always late. It's not that I like keeping people wait. I feel bad too. But I can't help. I try to speed things up BUT I'M STILL SLOW. I should have sleep early and wake up to prepare if I know I'm slow but I don't feel tired unless it's 4. I am not awake unless it's 12. So I am SO sorry to keep you waiting all the time. I promise I will try my best not to make you wait ok??? Love you much. // Now blog about yesterday activity. Nothing much... just spamming my cam with pics... and pasamalam... joke under a block... silly's house... HOMEY. Daddy is so happy that I'm back early:) Ok that is all:) Pics pics pics below:)
[Sorry baby for being a bitch. I love you to the max.]

2010-06-04T11:24:00.000-07:00

This post suppose to be post on the actual date itself but didn't because daddy need the com. So ya now I got the chance to post this up. And I suppose to post Saturday's pics up but I don't have the time. Daddy needs the com badly as much as I need. So I hope by tomorrow I am able to complete uploading every pic. Really is too much pic...:) My dad and bro is watching a movie now I am suppose to join them. But I think I just fall in love with bro's lappy. My hands just wanna keep on hitting the key pad! Fuck you tuition. I hate you. You destroy my beauty sleep. Today Jiamin asked if I got school tomorrow... I said nope. She say wow it feels good to be sec 3! Ya it feels good:) N level is still one year away! NO WORRIES. End here, good night. It's nearly 2am.
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Tuesday. 3rd month with silly(I love you so fucking much even though I get fucking piss with you soemtimes...)

Wednesday...
Stress with tuition work. I even told the book this:'"don't be a idiot la".

Friday... Sushi tei for lunch. Spend 50$ on cotton on again:) Laugh a lot with daddy at vivo. He almost got me a personal lappy but I don't want because I don't think I need one. Mommy at first keep scolding me for pulling them in to Daiso because we don't need anything there then later when daddy told her everything is only 2$... She bought 7 things. Certain things we already had it, she still buy. And say AIYA TWO DOLLARS ONLY. Then daddy and I keep on laughing. I swear daddy knows me well. He told me this suddenly... I know where you wanna go next... MINI TOONS! I replied back happily
YAYAYA! He knows I love cute cute soft toys. He knows I can spend an hour there. He knows I won't buy I'm just taking a look. He knows me so so so well. Lastly he knows I love him:):):)

2010-06-03T01:34:00.000-07:00

Pictures tonight?? I just wanna say I miss Felicia Lee, Celestine Heng and lastly Algin Ng badly! Even since last day of school till now I have not heard from her. I don't care no matter what I have to attend class chalet at least 1 day!!!!!!!! OMG such a hot afternoon. Oh I am fucking bored now. I've been trapping myself at home since yesterday! I need to step out of my house before I go crazy and moody! Grr.

2010-05-31T04:46:00.000-07:00

OMG my blog is private:( I hate it so much. No one gonna read it. Grr. But I got my own personal reasons to private it. Shall blog about last week:) Thursday which marks the last day of school is ALGIN NG RUI XIANG'S birthday. He's 17 now. Still behave like 1+7=8 year old kid:) No matter what, still my bf. I think it's my first time celebrating bf's birthday. I cannot remember celebrating with any of my ex's birthday. So Algin you must be happy ok:) After school so tired still go find you:) A lot of pics taken. Home by 12+. Friday = job interview and shopping:) Spend 50$ in cotton on! Saturday = meet baby. Steamboat at his cousin's place. Home by 2. Sunday = family day:) As for today, tution at 1pm. Ended at 2+. Slept from 3 to 6. I wonder if I can sleep early tonight... I don't want to look tired tomorrow. Yay my 3rd month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok enjoy those pics:) Sorry there's a lot pic of myself!

Start from pics of myself without lens...

Secondly pics taken outdoor...

Lastly pics of myself...[Stop here if you're not interested:)]

2010-05-30T08:37:00.000-07:00

Today is 30th May. Which means happy 1 year anniversary for Celestine and Kerry! I told Celestine that I'll blog a picture of them. This picture no one has it except for me:) And Celestine ever told me she love it. So ya:) You can copy from my blog now:) May you both last long as long as possible:) Lesser quarrels! Everyday sweet sweet de ok:) Hehe:) I love you Celestine! Bet he loves you the most:)
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NAH GIVE YOU COPY LA:)

2010-05-25T01:41:00.000-07:00

I'm so lazy to upload yesterday's pic with love. Frolick after school:) Then homey immediately. As for today, WIND SURFING. I find it not bad. But have to mention that the sea is fucking clean NOT. It's my first time being so so so dirty. I was having fun with the sea weeds, pieces of woods, plastics, whatever you name me. Really can't imagine I did this. But it's over anyway. Turn darker today:( I'm already dark enough!!! And I was not even fully prepared for this wind surfing. I left my shorts at home and extra shoes! Because my shoes I'm wearing will have to be worn down the sea. SO lucky that my classmate brought slippers but not wearing it:) Then hor..........the best part is I left my damp school shoes there at ECP!!!!!:(:(:( Actually I totally forget about my school shoes until love talk about it. I hope I get my school shoes back....But mommy said wait long long no one will be taking it back for me. Lucky 2 more days to June holi! The main thing I want to blog about was about my neighbour. He knocks on my door continuesly, shouting loudly like as if my house was on fire. And it woke me up! I open the door and guess what... HE SAYS DONATION PLS(smiling happily) I swear I want to shout at him! First you knock and shout. Second you woke me up. Third you ask for money. Can't you like come back later?! Grr. Ok that's all:)

2010-05-23T00:58:00.000-07:00

Hi good afternoon. I just read Celestine's tweeter. Hehe she tweet that she miss me! Happy happy I miss her too! When I see people tweet I feel like tweeting. But I don't know how to use it. Stupid me. I think I'm fucking stupid. Yesterday I suppose to meet Celestine in train and she told me to walk towards the end, I don't know what was I thinking... I walk towards the front. I don't realise I walk the wrong direction until I notice why we both said that we're at the last cubical but we still don't see each other! Fucking blur right, I know. She is not the only one that said I'm blur. My classmate, and even my dad. Damn. Oh and I remember yesterday I wanted to help Celestine to pour her drink from the can and guess what!!!! I topple the cup! Nonsense de lo me. Hais hais hais. Forget it talk about happier subject:):):) Went vivo yesterday! Daiso to get Celestine's falsie. Look so dolly. While queing up, I was looking at something else. Spot labi xiaoxin biscuit mad cute! The first person I thought of is...(love should know who) SO funny. Don't know why out of so many item, that is the only thing I said cute. Then Celestine told me that she remember Algin and his ex bought that when they came here! I was like thinking OMG. Got so qiao not! Oops NO pictures taken with my silly at vivo. And silly admit to me that he help every of his gfs carry bag BUT not me. What the fuck. SO lucky to be the unlucky one. Never mind it's ok:) Like that then special MAAAAAAA. Hehe. So ya was at vivo. Do nothing much there except spamming cam/crystal with pics. I look different yesterday. Silly said so, Celestine said so too. MY EYES............ WOW.......... I LIKE......... You shall see from below:) Back to Jurong at around... 6+??? Dinner at some place quite near silly's house. And slack near a basket ball court later. That's all for yesterday:) Yay silly birthday is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm still not ready yet. I'm idea-less;( Bye!
[I hope you meant it when you say you love me the most because I meant it when I say I love you very much...:) Wake up soon silly!]

2010-05-20T17:55:00.000-07:00

Wow it's 9 now looking at my lab clock. Yes I'm in lab now!!! First time here:) Felicia love should be right above me:) Hais different chinese class:( It's ok. It's just one hour I am not seeing her. But I miss her sia! Ok I need to stop now. Teacher wants the class attention now. Everyone is looking at the wide screen. I should finish up this now. MISS ME.
[Aww mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmiiiiiiiiiiiiiissssssssssssssssssssssnoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooasdasdasdawewerwerwrweaaaaaaaaaaaaaaelllllllllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know you don't get it. Me too. Ah fuck. I hate when silly don't message me much...]

It's JB :)

2010-05-18T04:50:00.000-07:00

Today my day off from school:) Tomorrow too! I spend my whole damn day at home. On Youtube watching about JB video. I realise I hate it when I see JB kissing other ang moh!!! Seriously jealous much:( He's mad cute! How I wish I know him rl. Too bad I don't:( Life suck. And my left face swell due to my ulcers. SO HAPPY not. Fuck you ulcers. My hair look so oily! But but but have to bear with it. The smell of my hair reminds me so much of my hair dresser lo! HEHE. Ok ok good bye:) I hope tomorrow I'm not going to stay at home the whole day on Youtube again. Actually I don't mind:) JB lei. K one last good bye!
[Wonder if baby miss me much... Hmm... ]

2010-05-17T08:55:00.000-07:00

Hehe I miss this cute girl!!! Thank you for waiting for me today:) I know it's boring. I'm so sorry to make you wait outside for about 2 hours+. But don't say I not good hor:-p I got treat you mum mum fried chicken! Today I get my hair strenghten! Felt so fucking happy. Not only happy for my hair and something else... Haha the secret between US. I wish I could you know stay there a little longer, but that means Celestine will have to wait longer:( How I wish there will be a NEXT TIME there:):):) And I know my wish will come true:) I think so... So ya I'm quite happy with my hair. Quite because my fringe fucking short. NO I don't regret cutting it:) Hais hais hais hehehe hahaha. I am feeling...........................I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN. Ashley Seah what are you thinking huh?!?! Grr. Ok lastly I think my hair dresser kinda cute:) NOT kinda, is VERY.
[ My dearest hun should be sleeping right now:) He sound so tired 2 hours ago! I love you i love you x3]

2010-05-16T07:38:00.000-07:00

14th May 2010:
Town with mama for my braces. Walk walk and had lunch there:) Mama lied to papa that I want a Gucci bag. But I didn't even said that. I hate it when mama wants something and she put words in my mouth! Lucky papa is smart enough to guess it's wasn't me that want the bag. Next we head to Bugis. I heard love said now there got clothes. Unlike last time. Go there like waste time. But I get myself nothing. Maybe not in the mood? I was like trying to hide my face. Due to erm something I did to my eyes. Only love knows:) Oh ya the best thing was I bump into her there!!!!! She didn't know I'll be there I didn't she will be there. And before that we actually want to meet but because we're not heading the same place, we decide not to. I didn't tap on her when I saw her. Already said I was trying my best to hide my face. But I still meet her after that:) Love her so much x3

15th May 2010:
I miss blogger. Hehe:) But I miss my silly even more. Though I just met him yesterday! Yesterday me, silly, Celestine and Kerry head to Chinese Garden. It's my second time there. What can I say is, I think WWW is way better. We played less than 4 hours and had our lunch there:) After lunch back to GP. On the bus back, silly point middle finger at me because I sat with a guy. What the fuck no space what. And I want to talk Celestine about something!!! When I turn and walk to silly's seat, I felt so so so ps! Other passenger was staring at me. Worst part of the day. But it's ok. It don't really affect my day. While slacking at GP's carpark, a group of blacks kept making funny noises at me and Ceslestine! Nonsense de lo. So later on slack at somewhere else. Saw this boy damn cute!!!!! I wish that was my little brother or son! I swear he's fucking cute:) Walk to Kerry's house after that. Me and Celestine damn funny lo. Run stop take pict run stop take pict. Even while crossing the road! Later shall see Ceslestine's house! Happy only lo she. Tomorrow meeting her again! Likey likey much:) Ok run out of words. Nightsy nightsy:)
[I miss silly so much:( See you next saturday:) Love you to the max.]

2010-05-06T23:48:00.000-07:00

What the fuck. No tuition today. Make me force myself up. Make me rush through my work. Make mama start cleaning the house now! Stupid. But also good la, I'm sick of tuition anyway. One more week to go!!! Today geo paper was a piece of cake, really. If I've got good memory power I think I'm able to score full marks. I've done before all that questions! It's really a waste that I can't memorise well:( Never mind never mind it's over:) Celest just message me why never come Jurong? I envy her and love lo! Got exams like no exams like that. Love go out everyday!!!!! So good! My turn next week. Pathetic sia:( And and I saw the PINK shorts I want from cotton on! Drop to 20$. Wa lao wa lao I want buy that now!!!!!!!!! But no now is not time YET! I can't find the pics taken with my silly:(:(:( WHERE IS IT?! :( Bye!
[Full of nonsense you.]

2010-05-04T22:00:00.000-07:00

5th May 2010 Wenesday:
Wa lao eh exams exams EXAMS! I've recovered from my fever:):):) No longer feeling weak! Hope my love(Felicia) get well soon too! Nowadays sick people everywhere! Had 2 papers today. I was rushing through for both paper. I always thought I'll have enough time but no I'm too slow. Did wrongly for my summary! Fuck. It fucking worth 20 marks. At least give me 5 marks pls!!! Grr. Later still have to study other subjects:( And tomorrow mama se tou paper 2. I have never pass mama se tou ever since secondary 1. It's always d7-f9. Hopefully I will pass this... Ok time for mum mum and pics pics:):):) Good bye x3
[Lack of communication, I don't like]
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6th May 2010 Thursday:
This suppose to be yesterday's post but I didn't publish because I have not done uploading pics. I still got a lot in my phone!!! I'll upload it tomorrow:) It's Friday anyway!!!!! Geo paper tomorrow:( Sian I can't memorise... I want pass geo! I think it's easy but I just cannot memorise! Keep hitting my head... Not use:( Study half way fall asleep on my chair. Wake up with my hand feeling OMG so pain! Still got 1 more chapter to go:( Don't feel like sleeping tonight lei. But I'm very tired now. Hais hais stupid MYE. Left with Chemistry, Physics, Maths, A maths and Art! Hate art so much. Me and love is doing way to slow. She skip like a couple of lessons. No love I can't draw much. Because no one to talk to. Hope next week we meet up and complete! Must meet me up and complete love! I know you ah always ah got ah a lot ah appointmentsss. I ah book ah you ah first ah! I said already. Don't later say is ME never ask you out for Art! Nightsy! Going study............ NOW? LAZY LA SIA.
[No good night messages from you anymore. I don't say does not means I don't care. It do matters. It's not like without it I'll lost one meat. BUT IT DO MATTERS.]

2010-04-29T03:21:00.000-07:00

I got not much time to update this space... Due to studying!!!!!! YAY TOMORROW SCHOOL CARNIVAL! I'm happy because no lessons not the carnival:):):) And Monday no school too! Wow wow wow. I want exams quickly over! I want go out with my love love(Felicia)! I want meet meet my silly often! I want play like mad mad! I want go go class chalet! I want to to shop! I want every every thing! But for now, I MUST MUST study hard:) GOODIE BYE X3
[Hehe 2 more days to 2 month with silly!:-*]

2010-04-17T20:11:00.000-07:00

Good morning!!!!!!!!! I slept at I think 4 but I wake up at 1030! I think that is not enough but I don't want to sleep back. Such a waste of time:) I rather blog now hehe:) I can't remember a bit of what I did for Monday! I forget when is the day I had phone confiscated and have to write bloody 2000 words of essay! OMG!!! I STILL GOT 500 WORDS OF ESSAY TO BE DONE! I wonder why DM come up with this punishment. Seriously amazing. My dad just came back! What the fuck. He ask me why I wake up so early. I should be asking him why he come back so "early" in the morning! Ask me come back early but he didn't! I lied that I reached home at 1250 last night. And he say wa so early ah. I THOUGHT HE ASK ME COME HOME BEFORE 1?! He even ask you angry ah. YES I AM ANGRY THAT I COME HOME EARLY FOR NOTHING. Stupid daddy! Lucky mama not at home! Back to last week, I remember one of the day I went to visit my friend at his place. He got his lip tear. And I got classmates saying worth it! Funny notes my classmates wrote for him!

So I just skip all the way to yesterday:) Went to silly's school carnival. Not bad. But the weather was good:) Feel so "cold" yesterday. You can tell from my pics!

After carnival, go Kerry's house a while. Don't know why once I leave the house and face the sun again. I feel so weak. Like I am going to collapse any time. Maybe I am just too hungry and the heat is killing me. Walk to GP to mum mum then back to silly's house. While waiting for him to shower I took pics. Just too bored:) Watch Ju-on half way, meet Celest! She did something nice, at the same time hurtful for me! Hehe thanks! No one ever did that for me! FOC some more! Hehe lots of love!!! Head separate ways at 0850. Ju-on suck. Not scary de lo! The face like shit. Got better looking ghost not?! Wa lao eh. Camera pics some other time:)Stopy here:) Bye bye!!

[I miss you Algin! See you next week baby! ]

2010-04-12T03:03:00.000-07:00

MAMA I MISS YOU!

ONLY FELICIA LEE KNOWS WHY AM I SO HAPPY TODAY:) Hehe! Love you lee! I actually plan to blog about the previous week but I am to lazy to think back:) So ya talk about today and maybe Friday, Saturday:) Friday after school head to Paragon:) Thank you Celestine for accompanying me!!! Unlike SOMEBODY. After that go find my dearest silly:) Daddy pick me up at Bugis:) THANKS DAD x3 / Saturday meet silly AGAIN! Sian ah!!!!! MRT MRT MRT! NB TIRED LA. But never mind it's ok. Once I get to see baby I forget about the trip there already, hehe!(Like real)I hate last Saturday so much that I got headache! CB I swear I will hate every dog cos of 1 dog! Nugget fucking scratch me! At least baby sayang me:-P The worst thing is, I learn where the dog come from!!!!!!!! OMG MAD MAD MAD. Forget it. I already get over it. I going bathe now. And my hun still sleeping! Best ah. Sorry if my da tui is too sexy for you. Just wanna show what nugget did:( Grr.
[What I can do for you is not what you can do for me. But I still like you.]

2010-04-08T13:50:00.000-07:00

Hi I leave school at 12 today! Happy much:):):) I just finish bathing and now waiting for the right time to leave:( Mommy is going back to Thailand! Which is mean no more mother and daughter talks! For bloody 2 weeks man. Still need iron my own clothes!!! Lazy sia. I wonder how mommy handle so much house chores per day. Ok I think I am about to leave soon:'( I sure going to miss my dear mommy so fucking badly. Hope this 2 weeks pass fast! Update about school thingys tomorrow! Bye love ya!
[It's getting from bad to WORST. I hate this.]

2010-04-04T03:14:00.000-07:00

I am so bored right now!!! With all my lovely cousins around:):):) Love it. Just here to post yesterday's pics:) And my lovely(s) are using webcam take pic! I'll skip that. My hair suck today. I think almost everyday! Grr~~~~~~~ June holiday come soon pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Lazy to talk about yesterday:) Ok let the pics do the entertaining x3 Good bye!
[Baby crystal run out of batt. What the fuck! No way I am going to contact baby until at night! I wish he is missing me now! Hehe love you hun.]

Opps I did it again!

2010-04-02T23:05:00.000-07:00

Oh so now I know who is reading this space:) I am now outside using wi-fi to surf the net:) At the same helping out my dad and waiting for HY. She said she's cabbing to JP. Hope so hope so! Ok 1st I would like to take back my words from my previous post:) I know I know is my bad:) I shouldn't refer you as a dog. I am not trying to test your patience nor find problems. I just type whatever I feel like typing at that moment:) I didn't know you will be seeing it anyway. So ya that's all for this post! I've said/done what I think I should do. You didn't offend me so I should not too hehe! Bye 'all-wrap-in-1':)

2010-04-02T02:45:00.000-07:00

Update update! One month to MYE! Need to study extra hard!!! Means spend lesser time with silly:( The thought of it scares me. Forget it. Talk about happier stuffs:) Yesterday was 1st April! Woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!! Me and silly 1st month! I know it's only 1st month... I hope this relationship would last! Hehe:) CANNOT LOSE TO YT, THE DOG. Haha! So this week was packed with lots of stuffs. I like I like! Time fly faster this way:):):) Monday- Buy thing(hope silly likey) for silly+quarrel. Tuesday- MT ORAL(I got praised! But teacher say need read more Chinese newspaper:)) Wednesday- Use computer:). Thursdays- After supplementary meet silly! By the time I reached his place, it was already 7+++ And guess what?! He's still in bed! Like what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Though it's our 1st month, NO PICTURES AT ALL! So long didn't take picture with silly! But I don't know why I don't really like taking picture as much as last time! I think I got a "too fat" face now! I WANT TO SLIM DOWN ON MY THIGH AND FACE AREA!:(:(:( Grr. Ate prata for dinner yesterday, haha! They keep making fun of silly! After dinner back to baby's house:) Oh and baby download Alice in the wonderland for me(Hehe I love you muchie)! I wanted watch it 3D and in the cinema! But baby keep dragging! Didn't get to watch yesterday because I suddenly don't feel like watching because don't have the cinama feeling and not 3D:( Then watched Xia Dao Xiao instead. BORING SHOW. Third time watching. Sg movie's really CMI. Cabbed home at 0000. Fucking expensive! I'm almost out of money now! Think this month gonna save a lot:) Bye I need to head down to Tanjong Pagar:) A little more pictures tonight:) I HOPE ALGIN NG RUI XIANG WILL WAKEY WAKEY SOON!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS YOU!
[I've give in way too much.]

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Just came back not long:) Ate quite a lot for dinner! How can I not be fat when I love eating so much?! Grr. So I'm actually here to blog more pictures up:) Hehe I miss my dearest baby so fucking much! Am happy that I can meet him tomorrow! Mommy is mad at me. She keep kp me for like being 'cheap'. As in like I am not worth at all. Keep being the one travelling long distance for my boyfriend. Like I can't live without him. She said shouldn't it be the guy travel long distance for the girl? I don't even mind and I don't know why does it bother her so much. Ok maybe I do mind a little. But I can't say I dislike being in Jurong West. I am just so sick living here!!!!!!!! And I won't want my precious baby to come here alone too, it hurts me:) I SO NICE TO HIM, I WONDER IF HE KNOWS IT:) HEHE! PLEASE READ THIS SILLY! OMG blogger upload pics so slowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww sia! Damn it la:( Camera out of batt! Still got pics not yet upload!
[WOW, I likey likey your eyes!!!!!!!! JEALOUS MUCH LO.]

2010-03-25T23:43:00.000-07:00

Hehe hi:) I feel happy today. But could be happier if I am able to meet my hun. Daddy won't allow. He says don't be too much... Ok ok I listen:) Anyway he's taking me out later with mommy!!! Hmm what should I get??? Shall see shall see:) So tired now:( But once I take a nap I will have difficulty waking up! This week, Tuesday hun was suppose to meet me at Tampines! But because of his STUPID excuse I must FORCE myself to his area! Lucky daddy and mommy wasn't that mad at me:) And today I got back progress report card! This morning my classmate just asked me if I am feeling scared. I said nope, I know I won't do well. My parents are understanding, even I don't do well they don't nag/scold as much other parent does:) Wonderful parents I got:) Hehe! I was shock when I receive my report card. Kinda happy with it I don't know why. Maybe because I didn't expect that. Got to buck up for my chinese! Fucking F9. And also my geo/ss!!! >10% My daddy say is like getting 0. Must study harder next month! So much pictures taken last Saturday:) Still got a few more in my baby crystal and Celestine's bloggy. Upload it soon:-P I AM FAT. I KNOW. MUST SLIM DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[Feeling uneasy again:) I am so wierd:)]

2010-03-21T04:02:00.000-07:00

Oh my god! It's 7pm now and my hun is still sleeping like a log! This week silly have been very naughty! He make me wait a lot. He sleep like forever!!! Stupid idiot! I hope my silly wake up soon please:( I miss him fucking badly. Grr. And I bet most of the students is worrying about their holiday homework!!! Deadline: tomorrow! Right right right? Since you guys don't even bother doing earlier, why bother worrying now? Too much homework and no time is just a common excuse. I think I'll just copy all tomorrow or maybe do some later? Shall see, hehe:-p Update again with pics later:):):)
[Hun, don't do this to me!]
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I am feeling very upset now. Over my hun. I don't think he know unless he read this. But when will he read this? I think by then I have already forget about this. It's good that I forget things quickly. Because if I don't, when can I not be upset? Life suck. I know I always say that. The only time I don't is when I am happy. But it's the fact that some times relationship=problem. When you have someone you loved deeply and you feel that he don't love you the same. You 100% will be moody. And the next thing you do was you vent your anger on him. He might not even bother and worst he gets angry at you. Guys always win in a love match. NO MATTER WHAT. So a reminder to all girls out there not to love someone too deep knowing he's not going to do so. But I can't. I ALWAYS go crazy over my hun. Without him I can't carry on with a lot of things! And just today in the afternoon I answer this question. Will my love life affect my studies? I was given 5 choice. Never. Frequently. Sometimes. Always. I forget the last choice. I pick NEVER. Now I am thinking, how could can it possibly be NEVER? It does affect! Because I'm upset I don't feel like doing my homework and because of my hun I am upset. So it is affecting!!! My hun did nothing wrong. But I don't know why am I upset? Is not I don't care, I CARE TOO MUCH. Mommy just asked me if I am ok, I know I am not good at lying. She said because of him? I shook my head. She continue to ask... I am never upset about other things. I am not trying to prove this relationship is giving me problem. Because I am happy to have my hun. He do brings me joy. Though is lesser than he getting my eyes wet. I do not want to ask for much or expect too much. NOW MY HEART IS BREAKING!!!!!!! Hais... Blogger won't allow me to upload any pics! I think blogger sense I am upset and is upset too? Hehe":)" And lastly, I love my hun to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!
[Next time round I won't show if I'm sad, I will act like I'm happy. And let me myself be hurt alone:)]

2010-03-17T21:38:00.000-07:00

I suddenly feel like blogging? God knows why. I feel so fucking uneasy now. Why? I don't feel like going out anymore but I don't want to stay at home too! Why does my heart beats faster than usual? Am I crazy or what? Why am I pressing so hard on the keyboard and keep back space? I don't know I don't know I don't know. I think I am crazy.
[AM I MISSING YOU OR NOT?! SHOULD BE. HEHE.]

2010-03-17T02:08:00.000-07:00

Have not update all-wrap-in-1 since 7 March. I got nothing much to update about either. Last saturday suck! Eye swollen. Spend my whole day at home:( Sad. Was suppose to meet silly instead! But never mind never mind:) At least monday and tuesday get to meet:) I suddenly forget what I want to say. Good bye my personal space! Update more soon:)
[Where do I stand your heart?:)]
Pictures taken some time ago!

Videos for you:)

2010-03-14T09:53:00.000-07:00

2010-03-07T07:04:00.000-08:00

This post is for Saturday:) Baby was late. I was mad. But it's ok:) Don't want let small things bother me:) Eat mac with silly, can't finish up the fries! He is so much worser than me. He can't finish up his burger! So fat don't know inside store what lo! Haha!:):):) Today silly still say he is slim and sexy!!!! Joke sia! So after mac, smoking time for him then arcade... Silly left me alone and play his stupid game!!!! GAME MORE IMPORTANT HOR?! While looking at silly play can fall asleep! After arcade then under block:) Talk cock with silly. HE LIAR. ANYWAY I NOT TALKING TO ALGIN NG UNTIL HE FIND A CAT FOR ME. A while later, C and K came:) Slack for a little while and cab to I don't know where. Saw silly's girlfriend(ex). Silly happy happy only! 7 o'clock cab to town. The taxi driver so fucking dumb. Stop me at somewhere I am not familiar with but I still manage to get myself to the place I am suppose to be! Such a smart ass:) Ok nights! I WANT MEET BABY ALGIN ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-07T02:23:00.000-08:00

Hi blogger. Just a short note:) All this pictures were taken on 1st march. Which marks the date for me and my silly:):):) This week is like the slowest week of all! Time fly time fly time fly time fly time fly time fly time fly time fly time fly! Hope this week past quick:) Because the following week is the holiday week! Everyone is waiting for!!! Woohoo:):):) Back to 1st march. The worst day ever currently. 2nd march = studying SS. 3rd march = waste precious time. 4th march = tuition. 5th march = buy bag<3 I love daddy muchie!!!! 6th march = Meet baby!!!! Such a boring week. No one can imagine how boring my life is. Every week is the same! BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Need to upload more pictures again! End here:)

I hope this is working out...

2010-03-04T02:26:00.000-08:00

Short update. Not in the mood for pictures. I feel fucking fucked up now. This is the best place to type everything out! At least after typing I will feel much better. Today I didn't really message A much. The conversation among us are getting lesser. I don't like it. I fucking hate it when we don't message! Yes I can't blame A for not messaging me. I mean he is sleeping, so how could he message me? I know he needs to sleep, who don't? But don't he think is too much?! Or is it just me that think so? I don't know. I just hate it when A overslept!!!!!! He don't message me. Which means he don't miss me(I am just putting words in your mouth again, sorry!). He is sleeping. Which means he can't message me. I should not expect much. I should have just spend my time messaging/talking to him when he is awake. Because once he sleep, I don't know when will he be waking up. I think I can't sleep early every night anymore. I need to spend my time on him! It's ok that I give up my sleeping time for A, but I just want A to know what I've for him and maybe do the same if it's possible. No one knows what the fuck am I talking now. No one knows what am I so upset about. Just hope A knows! And I think sometimes girls said something they don't meant because we just wants you guys's attention. But you guys always get easily pissed off. Never mind never mind. I understand I understand. I am not you, you am not me. I love you. All ever I ask for was your love/care/time. If it's too much for you, I just want your love then. I love you deep down baby...
[PLEASE SAY YOU SAY UNDERSTAND THIS. I MISS YOU VERY MUCH.]

2010-02-27T08:23:00.000-08:00

MY FAVOURITE PICTURE!!!!!!!!!!!^
Daddy finish checking his shit and I am currently talking to my precious baby. Hehe:)I KNOW BABY WILL READ THIS. SO THIS IS FOR YOU. YOU ALWAYS INTERUPT WHEN I TALK. ALWAYS I TALK YOU THEN BLAH BLAH BLAH. SO RUDE. NO WONDER YT KEEP PINCH YOU. BUT I AM NOT LIKE YT AND YOU KNOW I AM NOT LIKE HER. I DON'T PINCH I SLAP. AND I CAUGHT YOU LOOKING AT GIRL JUST NOW AT FEP!!!!!!! FUCK YOU BABY!!!!!!!!! HAHA BLEH:-P LOVE YOU LA! Today meet baby again:) I am always so nice being the one travelling long distance! But baby never praise me before!!!!!!!!!!! Grr. FEP to shop:) Bought 2 clothing only. I want to shop but there's nothing for me to shop. Not much stuffs caught my attention. C, K, baby and I keep walking up down. Poor Celestine... Hope her leg get better tomorrow! Went to Watson to get C's K's baby's thingy. Test make up's stuff on baby's hand! Hehe! I suddenly can't really remember what more we did in FEP. For the last fifteen minutes before I leave, C and I was playing funny game in MANGO. Celestine next time play again!!!!!!!!!! I think the stuffs heard us. We was laughing so loudly!!!!!! Haha! Ok I stop here. Baby waiting on the line. Shall not keep him waiting:) Good night:-*
[I LOVE ALGIN. I LOVE ALGIN. I LOVE ALGIN. I LOVE ALGIN. I LOVE ALGIN. I LOVE ALGIN.]
TODAY'S:)

2010-02-27T07:09:00.000-08:00

Friday's^
After school immediately went home:) Get myself prepared and off to Paragon. Daddy fetch me there!!!!!! Thank you love you:-* After Parogon, met C in the train at City Hall:) We both were busy talking away that we didn't even notice which stops are we at. JP to eat LJS! The chicken suck. I only manage to eat the fries and the skin of the chicken. Toothache:( My precious baby so nice take out the meat for me!!!!! Love him to the max! Done eating then slack at some where. Not sure. Spam baby crystal with lots of pics! I just finish uploading yesterday's and I am still left with today's! Lucky blogger work fast today. Less than 30 minutes:):):) Usually an hour! Got to stop blogging for a moment. Daddy wanna check some shit.

2010-02-25T05:53:00.000-08:00

Hi blogger. I don't know how to describe my feelings now!!!!!! I am feeling happy but at the same time feeling kinda stress! Grr. My birthday is coming!!!! Happy happy! Hehe! Yesterday love(Felicia) didn't attend school! What the fuck. Loner. Lucky got HY talk cock with me. Haha! Every time when she talk cock, me and love(Felicia) will keep hold back our laughter! Behind her back, we laugh out loud. I know I'm bad. But what she talking really make no sense la! She really thinks I'm a 3 year old kiddo. Gosh. Ignore her for now. Met my precious baby yesterday! MISS HIM SO MUCH! Him, me and K went whitesand for lunch and at the same time waiting for C;) K understands C very well! K thinks that C will either say she's hungry or she wants to smoke for her first sentence and C really did say one of it! Haha! While waiting for C, got bite by quite a number of stupid mosquito! But baby say cannot scratch! No choice must tolerate. Went home at 8. Felt so uncomfortable. I think yesterday was my first time out with school uni for so long! And yay tomorrow get the see baby again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So fucking happy!!!!!!!!!!! The thought of it makes my heart jump faster! Hehe I love Algin Ng muchie:-* Nights gotta call him now!
[If I ain't got you, baby...]

2010-02-22T06:26:00.001-08:00

Hi blogger. I just suddenly feel like doing a short update. I don't feel good now. Actually from one hour ago. I shouldn't have been to that website but I have already been. Though it's the past, but I don't know why the moment I take a look and stare at it for a few seconds, tears just filled up my pair of eyes.......................................... I miss you, A-N. I REALLY DO. Why do my parents pick to live in Tampines!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????? I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT FAR AWAY FROM A-N.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................. I LOVE A-N SO FUCKING MUCH. Nights.
[I wonder if you miss me every minute, because I miss you every second.]

2010-02-20T19:53:00.000-08:00

It's been 8 days... Last week was a busy week. Due to CNY! Collect not much I think. I have not open almost all of my red packet yet. I'm waiting for my birthday to open it all up!!!! Left 9 more days to my birthday! Last year was horrible. This year I hope not. But don't know why, at first I was not really looking forward to my birthday. I hope I just skip that day. Now no:) I lost quite a lot of $ in blackjack with my family. I was not unhappy about it. Anyway I won it back from C's! Hehe! And I have to thank F & C! If not, I won't have known A. Met A, C, C's on Friday. Keep forcing F to accompany me but she didn't! It's ok, I understand! Now not same already, SOMEONE GOT BF ALREADY WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!! Lucky enough, C didn't ps me:):):) Night mrt back together. The distance seem shorter when someone is there to chat with you! When you're alone, it takes forever!!!!!!!! And I lost my ez link on Friday's night! Fuck. So fucking troublesome. On Saturday. I suppose to go for my dental appointment but end up cancelled because I'm late. Afternoon accompany daddy to his friend's house collect red packet! Then eat curry and tom yam with bee hoon:) Actually I don't want eat, then daddy keep forcing me to eat then ok I eat. After eating meet Algin again!!!!:):):) Then C and C's came GP for like about an hour and half and left for dinner. Then A and I went carpark to chat. Chat-take pic-cab to FEP. The funny thing is, A told me his daddy cook curry and tom yam! Just nice is what I ate in the afternoon!!!!!! Coincidence!!!!!!!!! Ok that's all:)
[I miss Algin Ng much! But he miss Ashley Seah more!]

Daddy's little foot:)

Reunion dinner!

Blue dress: first day of CNY.
Pink clothes: second day of CNY.

2010-02-13T00:50:00.000-08:00

Hi blogger. I guess no one is reading it. But it's ok. Anyway this is just my personal space where I blog about myself and I, not for others to read. So... Er I can't really remember what I did this whole week. Monday I think went 18 chef with Felicia, Huiwen, Rachel, Jonathan and R's for my first time. That place reminds me of him! I could not remember what I did recently but I could remember what I did with him last year! It was E's birthday so I suppose to accompany him to 18 chef for E's birthday celebration but I didn't because of another reason(lazy to elaborate). But I did met him a while at east point!!!!!!!! He look so super handsome please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grr. Forget it forget it! I thought I shouldn't talk about that! Oh back to Monday. 18 chef suck big time. Seriously the service was like AMAZING not la! Burn that place. Next, Tuesday. I can't remember a thing. Wednesday. I only remember got CNY performance. Thursday. Tiring!!!! Friday. From Bedok-Lavender-ION-Lavender-Home:) Yesterday night, watch 3 eps of HMS. I was already very sleepy but can't help the drama make me wanna keep watching! Got terrible blocked-nose due to too much crying! I think I am putting too much feelings into HMS while watching. I suddenly remember something! S and J said that I like to imagine things! I like to put myself in every example. Like, when I watch HMS, I imagine myself in the drama/if this happens to me. Silly me! Why am I always imagining so much??????? And lastly today. I woke up at 12+. Ate at 1+. 2 start watching HMS until now:) Another boring Saturday! Got to finish all my homework today no matter what! Stress!!!!!!!!:( Enjoy your reunion dinner later everyone:)
[I hope it remain this way. But that makes me lonely. Fuck.]

2010-02-07T13:07:00.000-08:00

Afternoon people!!!!!!! My pair of eyes felt so heavy. I just cried a lot again. I slept at 4+ last night due to HMS! Two thumbs for that drama! Seriously such a awesome one. I never like watching drama. From yesterday, I totally love it! I specially woke up at 10 for HMS too! Poor me slept for only 6 hours! And HMS keep making me cry and laugh at the same time! When I woke up today, I look into the mirror. I was shock. My right eye look swollen. No it don't look swollen, it is. Have been crying too much last night. My parents said I'm crazy. What is there to cry for? But I really can't stop crying. The drama is on, my tears just kept falling. Good one. Not forgetting, watching HMS was the first thing I did when I woke up. It's not brushing my teeth/wash face. The drama seems to be more important, hehe:) As I don't know when will I be able to watch again after today. No time. Now I have to walk over to Granny's house for my lunch. After lunch, maybe to T1 for my stuffs and also accompany my lovely cousin to get her's:) So hungry!!!!! Have a nice day k!:)
[Ok I have to admit she suits you best... Great choice:)]

2010-02-06T06:48:00.000-08:00

Hi hi:) Today is the 6th day of the month, haha! Someone must be missing someone badly wor! Think you must be kinda moody today? So am I. Only YOU know what I mean. I am so confused. I can't make up my mind!!!!!!!! I got nothing to blog about today but yesterday. Today I spent my precious time tidying up my room and brother's room. Hope he appreciate what I've done and not mess things up again. By then it should be 4+. Read my dairy. I find myself so silly in 09. Begging and crying over guys! I swear I won't anymore! I don't beg for you. You beg for me. After reading my dairy, HOMEWORK! Didn't mange to do A maths I think. So hard. The moment I read the question, I immediately put my pen down and keep the homework. I'll just copy in school on Monday. The best solution:) And just now I just saw a group of indians dancing to the music, the way they dance. I can't resist myself from laughing! I know whenever I bad mouth someone, something bad will happen to me. And the very next minute, I almost slip down a slope but lucky enough I balance myself!!!!!!!!!! Thank god:) Oh back to yesterday. Did my shopping with my dearest parents:) Spent a lot! Happy happy, very happy! Bought one piece of shirt. Cost ~!@#$%^&*. Daddy's stuffs cost 4/5 times my piece of shirt!!!! But new year what, so I think it's kinda worth it:) I am lazy to post pictures now. Shall do it some other time:) Bye, it's my drama time hehe:-p
[Valentine's day is coming!!!!! Girl's bestfriend, roses/diamonds!]

I never seem to learn from my mistakes...

2010-02-02T01:44:00.000-08:00

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THIS DON'T WORK, I STILL LIKE HIM!!!!! I DON'T KNOW IS THAT THE GAP BETWEEN US NOW. WE DON'T SEEMS TO TALK MUCH/NICELY ANYMORE!!!!!!! LIFE SUCK.
[How can I always get into this?! I can't concentrate in class now. It just take one mistake, things could just turn up in another way.]

I need to buck up!

2010-01-25T23:48:00.000-08:00

Loads of test coming up! Can't complete English test today. Doing way to slow... Can't blame, I am seriously so tired. Tomorrow teacher gonna give us 12 minutes to complete it up, hope I do so. Thought today got Physics test but it was Friday! Mess it up with Chemistry test which was today! Copied Sebastian's answer, except for the MCQs I try it on my own. Think a lot people cheat too! Relieve teacher what right so no one really care! Just wanna quickly get it done. Really need to buck up, family members praise my brother and my other cousins but not me YET. Because they gonna praise me soon, hehe! I must prove to them I will receive money this year! They all got their's but where is mine? SOON. Oh and for Physics lesson!!! Haha! Damn funny la! Love(Felicia) and I play draw lots!!! We started playing that last year til now! It's a lame game, but we added some new stuffs in and it help a lot for killing time:) Don't know who lose to me lo! Don't know WHO say I love you to J. Hor hor hor? Haha! So lucky me. Teacher swop our places:( Apart from love(Felicia):( Think she is getting used to her position already:) So much people willing to entertain her, where will still need me! So that is all for today:) Yesterday I forget what I did already. I only remember trying to upload pictures but blogger being naughty with me and just won't upload a single a picture! Hehe got to do homework now! Later ah yi going back Thailand already.......... I am starting to miss her badly even though she is still here with me!!!!!!!!! I love my ah yi so much!:'( Muacks! I remember when the first few day she came, I was like:" Mommy when is ah yi going back Thailand?" Mommy said about 2 weeks later. I was shocked. Is not that I don't welcome her but she is occupying my room and I am used to sleeping alone then with my brother. But now I hope she live here longer to accompany me... I am afraid of being at home alone, you know, GHOST. I AM AFAID OF GHOST, WHO DON'T? Maybe a few.
Later once she leave, I will have to live with fears again:( AH YIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII:'(

Coincidence! Grr.

Picture of yesterday, hehe!

Try this out^

Teacher thinks that I will be a doctor when I grow up. Do you think so too?

Such a good idea!^

Guys are just a bunch of liar. So stop being fooled.

2010-01-23T22:49:00.000-08:00

I hope my dear love(Felicia) is fine now... At least not crying badly. My heart ache to know how upset you are... Because I know there is nothing anyone could do to heal the pain. Maybe time is the best medicine now. Cheer up and be the always smiling Felicia Lee I used to know:) Anyway I went to DG with love(Felicia) yesterday for a purpose. Still considering... It cost 570$. What the fuck, so fucking expensive! But the pay is at least 3 digit... So should take it or should leave it? Advice please!!! Mommy thinks I'm too young and think I should concentrate on my studies first. Daddy thinks that they might be cheating on young teenagers. So how??? I really am interested in it... But I am also a little afraid that I might be cheated! 570$ it's not a small sum to me! And worst, I am using my own savings:( Shall consider again tomorrow. So after DG, Cathay, PS, FEP and lastly back to Tampines 842. Met Choo Qilong a while. Didn't do much talking, nothing to talk either. And left after someone called love(Felicia). Spam my baby crystal with quite a number of pictures! Hehe:) Girls what, simply love taking pictures:) SO MANY PEOPLE GO WH YESTERDAY! ENVY MUCH! Never mind, next month our turn ok! Felicia? Hehe you should know what I am referring:) Oh shit. I just remember I got maths work to do! Shall copy tomorrow if I am unable to complete on time. Good bye! My baby nephew is waiting for me!
[I miss Paul Kanan. Wonder if he miss me too? Oh and pictures not done yet, hehe!]

My blog seem so dead.

2010-01-22T21:23:00.000-08:00

Hi. It's been more than a week. Time seriously pass fast. I can't believe it! I have already clearly forgotten what I did on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. I don't bother thinking back too, kinda lazy to do so. As for yesterday, which is Friday, I remember! After school, don't know where to go so Felicia and I decide to head home straight instead. Think both of us are tired to head to anywhere else. Anyway, home is always the best place right? Maybe not? Maybe yes? Depends on individuals. So yup, back home:) Had my lunch then shower and sleep for 45 minutes, in between with phone calls waking me up for every 15 minutes! Make me can't sleep properly. Wake up and watch Alvin and the chipmunks. I watched that for like more than 5 times already but don't know why, I will never get bored of it. Too cute:) Enchanted and Ratitulette(the rat that cook, spelling not right.) is another kind of show that I'm able to watch more than 5 times without getting sick of it! After the show, facebook! Help me kill time:) Then called up Paul Kanan, but that silly didn't pick up nor reply my message! Thought he wanted to trick me to Tampines Inter when he is not even there! But nope, he didn't. He called back around 6+ telling me his phone went dead and swop with his friend's battery. And hurry me to Tampines Inter but still, I take my own sweet time, afraid that he won't turn up later. But his message don't look fake, he keep asking me faster faster. Quickly have my dinner off to Tampines Inter. Because of him, I ate very little for dinner! I was so hungry at night! Met him already then decided to take shutter bus to Ikea. Ages since I last saw him! I think the main point to Ikea was because of Hot dog. There selling combo(drink and hot dog) for I think 2.00/2.50. So cheap and he make me treat him! For me I ate Ice cream while waiting for him to finish up his food. He said I ate like a little girl with the cream dripping all over! He's really a GOOD entertainer! The moment I met him I realise I can't stop smiling/laughing! He always bring joy to me! After Ikea met his friend at Tampines Mac then void deck to chit chat til 11.30 and back home. Oh ya saw Choo Qilong too! I feel so bad that I avoid him... But I was really shock and shy:( So sorry. Maybe meeting him later? Don't know don't know... Bye! Need to start preparing myself now! Pictures tonight?:)
[I feel happy for you even I only know you indirectly. Hope both of you last long:) Given up. And I miss Paul Kanan much!!!!!!! Grr.]

Woohoo, I just love you like mad!(Wordy post, so sorry!)

2010-01-13T05:45:00.000-08:00

One thing I got to say about you is, AWESOME. Yes I am sure you are. And not only I think so? I think a lot of others think so too. I hope you don't forget me whenever you know someone new. You know I'll get jealous and I am easily jealous! So every step you taking, I'm watching. You better don't do things that disappoint me k! Because I had you only as my best girlfriend. No one understands me like you do, no one know my silly acts like you do too. I love making myself a joke to you because I love seeing you smile. Your smile brighten my day, hehe:)(Sounds like Imma les) Smile more ok! I hate seeing you being upset over small things like r/s problem or whatever other problem. Life is full of ups and downs, that's why life suck. But I just want you to know that I will definitely always be there for you no matter what, I swear. I know you already found a right partner that you trust/love the most and will also share your problems with. I think there is no harm having another right? I also know you got a lot more other girlfriends to pay attention on. BUT I JUST WANT THE MOST ATTENTION! I am not sure if you trust me, but I trust you. I will never hide things from you unless I got no choice. Whatever I had in mind that I'm unhappy with it, I usually choose to voice out to you. I got no one I really trust to turn up to but you. I have to say this 2 years getting to know you was fantastic. You bring joy to me. All your foolish acts just make me want to laugh every single time. I really can't find any words to describe you. No such words can describe how important you are to me! Grr, you got me so addicted to you!!! I miss you though I see you almost everyday and we just met 2 hours ago! I hope you see this and write back something nice uh! If not I take it as you don't love me. But it's impossible because YOU LOVE ME. Hehe! HAPPY 24TH MONTH, I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX. I'm greedy, kindly love me more than HIM(WJ). Please la how long you know him?! Cannot compare man. Muacks!!! And stop blogging about how special he is to you, START BLOGGING ABOUT HOW PRECIOUS AM I TO YOU, NOW ONCE YOU SAW THIS.
To: Felicia Lee Jing Tian ^
[You're such a bitch. Yes you. I think you are just doing certain things on purpose which I don't give a fuck damn about it but I have to because you just keep appearing. And your boyfriend better shut his mouth. I have heard things that really pissed me off. All thanks to your's. I know I can't mind about this but you are TOO irritating walking past for like countless time. Wonder is there gold in the toilet. Bring your own mirror la. Budget.](If you feel that it is you then it is you, I didn't list down names so you can't comfirm anything) Upload pictures soooooooooooooooon:) Aww, endless of work to do!!! Night:) 130108-1301__ It just keep carry on!

Opps it's 10 today...

2010-01-10T01:49:00.000-08:00

Top and bottom picture got something strange if you notice. Look harder!

Hey. Yesterday was such a tiring day. And I'm seriously getting fatter! I ate so much yesterday! More than everyday. Korean food(mommy), Fast food(love), Western food(daddy). From 1-7.30. In between met love(Felicia) at Bugis! She purposely train to city hall because she can't wait to see me! I know without you saying:) Hehe! Actions speaks louder than words! Bad hair day yesterday:( Damn, Imma fat pig. Tips for losing weight, anyone?! Oh and how can I grow vertically instead of horizontally? I need help please!:( I just finish my school's work and tuition AM's work! Finally. But I still got tuiton MA work to do... Sick of maths! Who agree maths suck?! Grr. I am losing my voice! What is happening? I want back my 'sweet' voice!!! Life suck. Ok now another topic. I can't stand every shit that you and you do. See it? I said shit. I describe you and you did as shit. Yes you and you might think I'm jealous? But hell no. I'm just wasting my time if I do so. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE I HATE YOU. Fuck off bitch from my sight and I meant it!!!!!! You know I shouldn't have even talk about this, but I can't help myself from avoiding this topic. How can I forget today is 10? I really want to but I really CAN'T. So don't blame me bitch. Is not like you never gone through this. You should know how I'm feeling now.If you don't, you're dumb. I kinda feel bad now. I don't know why. Maybe I am just forcing myself to hate you when I don't? Will I forget MDCN next month 10th? Hope so... Good bye:) Don't know when will I touch the keyboard again, hehe.
[我总是心太软，把所有的东西自己抗。]
REMINDER: 3 more days to...............................................................................2 years with SOMEONE I LOVE DEEPLY! FLJT(FWJT) ALSO AS KNOWN AS FOJT I LOVE YOU FOREVER! HAHA I KNOW YOU WILL KILL ME ONCE YOU SEE THAT, MUACKS:-*